I’ve been chipping away at my book. I’m going to write it linearly even though I have an outline that would allow me to pick up and write at any point. The reason is simple, I write organically through inspiration.
As such, my outline is now tentative. Maybe more of an idea to aspire to rather than anything set in stone.
The question is, do I wait for inspiration before writing?
I know this is contrary to NaNo WriMo in that nano beliefs are that writing more and more and more is what drives inspiration. That by sitting down and banging out word after word something good will come of it. And in some ways, that’s right. Writing something, anything, is good for the mind.
But I’d like to defend waiting for inspiration.
I’m currently at a cross roads. It’s the point at which one character, Molly, finally goes off the deep end. She’s lost any hope at having a stable relationship with a man, she’s staring down a woman who has no shame or self consciousness while Molly is wracked by that due to her society friends, and her best friend is now off in relationship/sex la la land. It is also where I have deep character development between Dom and Victoria where she acts as a surrogate for Molly in his life. There is a lot happening in the span of 10k words. It’s the third chapter and it drives everything that happens. It has to be right from the beginning.
It has to be right because it establishes all the future actions of the book. I can’t just plow through it and hope for the best to come out. I’ve tried that in the past and it’s a bad idea. If I just say “the hell with it” I might waste the entire book. In short, I have to do it perfectly before moving on.
I need inspiration for how this is all going to work out. Inspiration is part of the creative process. Waiting around all day for it to happen is a bad idea for writing an entire book, but sometimes that “a ha” moment is necessary for things to come together and knit.
One thing that does help is writing about what I want to do. Getting my fingers moving on what I want to come next. It helps. It helps form an outline in my head and understand the characters better. But I still need that spark, that moment of inspiration to happen, however it happens, but banging out words isn’t going to get me anywhere. It’s just going to be a waste of time. And I’ve tried punting and getting it out of the way, but nothing comes because I have no inspiration behind what to do next, no kernel of insight to work off of.
It’s why I don’t believe in writing every single day about the same thing. It’s why I have this blog, it keeps me going but also keeps my mind off of what I have to do next. It’s a distraction, but it’s also good for me creatively. My writing muscles are still flexed, to some degree, but my mind isn’t plagued by the downtrodden bulk of what to write next.
And then of course there are just days that I don’t want to write for any particular reason. Or I have a bad day. Yesterday was one of those days. I listened to music for hours and had a synesthetic experience. And what happened next was today, one where I feel like I have a grip on what to do.